She remembered who she was, her true identity and realized that she’s getting steps away to her future self.
She then became a strong woman after being vulnerable. She then became braver to take a challenge to move on from what’s keep her holding on. She learns to smile at the truth and laugh at the lies. She became smarter and wiser to every circumstance that she had been through. She is specific in deciding because she knows what she needs exactly. A perfectly Imperfect girl with confidence and character, until one day you came along again into her path. She resists you and stand with all her walls that she pulled around her to protect herself from you. Yet you keep on trying and still she keeps on resisting. You tried so hard to win her back like there’s nothing happened in the past. She became tired of fighting, all that walls that she builds, she let it down because she’s tired of keeping herself standing firm.
Yes, you break those walls. Despite of her being strong and independent, you showed her that it’s okay to be vulnerable again and she became dependent on you because, just because she felt that comfort again. Some feeling that you’ve been longing for someone at some point of your life. She has been searching for that somebody that will make her feel like home. Holding hands, conversations over dinners or snacks, long walks to her places, and chats from time to time in a day. All these are like a dream come true for her. You made her feel that you will always there for her, that she can lean on you and that you can be her home. One Dinner talk over the table, you brought out words that change everything to both of you. One decision you have made that awakens her day dream yet she still managed to smile because she realized it’s good to be true. She was wrong for letting you do those things to her. She get attached easily to you and by that goodbye, she remembered everything about you and her. Those years ago, she warned herself to keep distance to you. “Stay away or cry all the way.” She remembered bad memories that she had already forgotten. That was 4 years ago when she begged for the love that isn’t for her. She’s crying back then pleaded you not to leave her. Again and again you’re leaving her once again, disappointed and wounded.
Yes, you showed her that she can be happy with you. She used to smile and laugh all the time and forget about drama and bad vibes. You can be the reasons of her smile and made her happy for a time, but also you can cause her beautiful smile to turn upside down. You can be the reason of her happiness and her beauty to bloom. You can make her feel alright and content, but it was never actually enough. You did things that hurt her. You choose your friends over her while she chooses you over hers. You make her feel less by choosing “I” than “we”, that broke her heart. When you don’t want to stand up for her for it wouldn’t be that easy for you and to your principles. Yes, you taught this and that, but did you at least consider what she will feel. You made her feel like all the things that she conquered and all the battles within her that she won aren’t worth it. She fought against her stands and fears. She risks it and now you made her feel that she isn’t worth the risk. You never choose her; you always left her with a shattered heart and face without smile at all.
Yes, you taught her to settle for less, to endure as much pain as she can, to be okay, even if she isn’t and to leave her own self behind to fit what is convenient with you. Before you came all along again, she knows she can be happy without you; she knows she can bloom beautifully without you; she knows how making wise decision and always knows what’s best for her; she has always been sure with her stands and principles; she felt secured and loved before you came back. But this time, she wasn’t sure about her decisions yet she knows that her future her will never be happy seeing herself living a miserable life.
Then she remembered who she was.
She decided to start again. Leave everything behind and live a life to the fullest. She decided to reclaim her strength, her genuine smile and whole heart. She decided to forgive you and remain the lessons that she gained from you.
She is ready for the next game. She is better than yesterday.
“Every setback is a set up for a comeback. God wants to bring you out better than you were before. “